Bittersweet Birthdays

 

Surprise guys! E turned 5 this week! I’m so happy that i’m able to watch her grow and learn, she is turning into this incredible person that I am so proud of and i’m so excited to see the new things that she’ll start doing. However, as thrilled as I am, it also puts my time with them into perspective. When I first met the girls E was 3 and didn’t talk a third of what she does now. When I would pick them up I would start most of the conversations with her and now I cannot get her to stop. Literally I cannot get her to stop if someone has a suggestion on how to get me five minutes of quiet let me know. When I first met Little G she was 2, now 3, and she was so sweet and small. She listened when I asked her to do things but now she is G, Destroyer of Worlds. Whatever you do, do not make her angry, or get in the way of her and Elmo. 

April 2015/October 2015

April 2015/October 2015

December 2014/October 2015

December 2014/October 2015

 

My point in all that is a lot has changed and seeing them every week going from place to place I hadn’t really noticed how huge they were getting not until E started pointing out (every chance she got) that she was going to be 5 soon. That means next year a new school for E and a schedule change, that means i’m getting older and my graduation date is getting closer, it means my time of picking them up from school is getting shorter and shorter and i’m not doing well at accepting that. I love being a nanny, I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. I love planning trips to the museums and finding all the best story times around Houston and doing things like making cupcakes and playing whatever games they make up that day. I love the bond that those things create and how over time you basically become part of the family. 

Again however, being the person that I am it’s impossible to think about how quickly it could end. That even if I were to stay with E and G until they graduated high school they’d still grow up and not need me. I have to grow up and start worrying about where I want to go or where I want to work and that’s terrifying. I am horrible with change, especially when it involves a lot of different decisions being made and so even though i’m so happy that E is growing and yelling important life questions at me from her car seat like “I didn’t buckle my top belt right did the cops see us?!” (I didn’t change that quote at all) it’s a little heartbreaking. So I told myself after writing this post I will save that future planning for later when i’ll need to, for now i’m going to enjoy E and Little G as much as I can and will be sure to share our fun adventures and stories on here for you all to see and me to document. 


Talk to you all soon! 

-Lauren