I really enjoy complaining, I mean blogging about particular nanny problems and so this series is never going to end. Today i'm talking again about moving on from your nanny family and how hard it is to come to that decision.
I was recently faced with a hard decision in my personal nanny career and was struggling a lot with what direction I wanted to do and couldn't really come to a healthy solution and I couldn't understand why. I've alway done the part time nanny juggle which is where you're working full time hours but with different families scattered throughout the week. This was great when I was in school (I feel like such a grownup when I say that) but now that I have the opportunity to stay in one place it's becoming more and more obvious that this would be the best solution for me. It's the most logical solution for a lot of reasons. I wouldn't be putting so much mileage on my car, doing days of going to three different families is exhausting and my patience begins to run thin with the other children and parents which isn't fair to the families and I would be a lot more financially stable since I would be with one family who needed me versus having the possibility of my hours being cut. However and MAJOR however, I don't want to leave my current nanny families.
It's very easy to logically look at the whole of the situation and say I need to do x y and z but the stab in the chest comes when you're at work and your nanny kids are starting to do new things and you don't want to miss any of their upcoming milestones but life calls.
I just read this on a different bloggers post a few weeks ago and it was like a slap in the face.
"When fear outweighs your faith
When frustration outweighs reward
When your health either physically or mentally is compromised
Seasonal change. This chapter is done but there’s another ahead.
Quitting does not mean you’re a failure or weak. It’s the next phase of the journey."
I began to wonder am I here because i'm that attached or am I more scared to leave and start this new chapter in my life? I think it's a bit of both. I am scared to move forward, that I will always be. I'm someone who is very hesitant and cautious of change, even moving my bed is a huge commitment for me so to completely change my working style and how I want to do things in my nanny career is going to be a process for me. Understanding that about myself and reminding myself that I need to be patient and careful with any upcoming changes has helped me a lot with the anxious and hesitant part about moving forward in this journey; but now comes the hard part. Looking for a new nanny family that I can work with full time. I've been out of the job search field for a while and going forward into it now is exhausting and so stressful but it has to be done.
So i'll keep you guys posted on what's to come and we'll see what happens! Until next time take care!